Poena

The fish WILL get their eyes.....

2008-06-10T23:06:00.004+02:00

Water colour class...

First class...sort of like a Rorschach test, a mirror image of a horizon, experimenting with washes, and then adding tree detail and cleaning out the horizon line later...the colours are not my favourite but the effect is sort of cool no?

Second class, again experimenting with washes, and color mixing..can you tell I LOVE bright colours? And yes....the fish will get their eyes...

hmmm....

What I have been doing...My Mother's flowers...

2008-06-10T22:51:00.004+02:00

Experimenting with acrylic paint and trying to render my first still life floral with drapery. This started with about 4 attempts in paint (which failed miserably), then it sat on my easel for about 4 solid days as a pencil rendering on oil paper while I toiled and toiled on it trying to get it just right...., thank goodness oil paper is so sturdy or I would have rubbed holes in it with my eraser.... I do love the colors though and I guess not too bad for first attempt... This is my first canvas, for an online class I am taking called organic backgrounds. I love it, though it feels more collage-y and crafty than masterly artist..the techniques are very fun though with layering and layering more stuff one over the other. It is only at stage 2 out of 5..so stay tuned.
This is a pencil drawing of a photo I took of a puppet from Asia that I loved that I pan to use as my focal element on the background above...
This is another canvas from the same class...again stage 2 out of 5...

And here is what I did today...

2008-03-11T21:42:00.004+01:00

Here is the photo I was working from, I decided to try something a little more challenging with lots of foreshortening, and a slightly more dramatic pose. I must confess I cheated a bit as I used a few guide lines to help me get the proportions right.

Here is the charcoal outline, cleaned and lightly sprayed.

Then corrected and prepared for the watercolor wash.

The first wash not yet dry as you can see the paper buckling.

Once the watercolour is dry I begin to layer the charcoal, creating light and and dark at which point I can make any corrections that I am able to see. Then, I like to take a nice break and then come back to it, I ALWAYS see something glaring I did not notice, that is in dire need of repair...like this elbow...yikes

Ahhhh... that's better..! I also like to try to look at overall shading values to give it a realistic light dark balance. All done, what do you think?

Here is what I did yesterday..

2008-03-10T18:59:00.004+01:00

A little more work with Charcoal and watercolor together...

The photo I chose to work with, I think it is gorgeous..no? I love the hand

First I decided this time to work a bit larger so this one will end up about 3'X4'. So, the first step is to do a rough sketch of the form in charcoal, just lightly, get the form right, then you clean it by gently flopping it with a soft cloth, like dusting, but not rubbing, then set it lightly with a fixative spray.

Then you do a soft wash with a watercolor deepening the shadows and leaving highlights, and then let it dry.
Keep layering the water color progressively getting darker, until you have a contour you like and then let it dry.

Once the work is dry start adding more charcoal lighter and finer first and then finishing with darker accents, remembering to look at shadows.

This is the end result.
What do you think?

Ok, SO YES, I DO have a great big creative fire burning under my behind...

2008-03-06T10:06:00.004+01:00

And some more new things...

This is another portrait attempt using the same technique as the last one (layers of watercolour washes), using another B/W portrait from my book, and this is the rendering,I tried to be a little looser in my style and not be so "illustrator" It looks a bit better I think thought I have still made some obvious errors regarding the shape of the face, and it could use a little more work on the high and low lights. It is amazing how obvious things become in a photo or mirror while it is sometimes tough to see when it is right in front of you! I guess it sort of looks like maybe his brother or dad...

This next is what I did in class yesterday, a first attempt at a charcoal sketch with an overlaying wash of water color.

Not bad, though I was working from another piece of artwork while I would prefer a model or photo. After class I went and got some charcoal and some big paper so I can try a few at home this week... *Can't wait*!

I am sure my family will be thrilled...*Any one feel like getting nude?*

...*Just kidding!*

BTW I would really love any critical comments you have as a viewer, or artist, technical or any suggestions and please Be HONEST!! I would love to hear your ideas...besides nice stuff... REALLY!

SO what are YOU working on? Show me!

Some more fiddling with portraits

2008-03-05T22:14:00.003+01:00

So this is the portrait I worked from, taken from a book of B/W portraits. Then using the watercolor technique I began in a rougher stage I started to sketch out the face shape and the depressions, and roughly the details, as each layer dried I began to define and redefine the features, mindful of light and dark. Not bad- but not an exact likeness... (I actually think he is cuter...) LOL!

This is a pencil sketch I did of Lily tired and sucking her thumb while watching TV...

*Sweetie pie!*
And these are two more experimental portraits taken from engravings on money, again with no pencil, only a brush...

More to come in a few days!!

A little of this- and a little of that...

2008-02-28T20:24:00.007+01:00

A few weeks ago, before the holiday, Torsten (that is my art teacher if you have forgotten) ushered me into the painting room in his 3 room studio, to where a large easel sat, already prepped with a large piece of white paper. He gestured to some brushes and a palette of water color paints. Then he rummaged around in a resource folder and produced some things for me to work from. Then he handed me the brush, and said...PAINT.

*You mean with no pencil sketches first?...gulp*
*With all these other people around to see my flub up*
*Perspire...what if it's a mess...or loos silly...perspire*

I was not prepared to work on the fly, with my usual calculated and planned style being the crutch...plus the entire idea of making something less than perfect...
Well ugh...*Oh goodness get over yourself girl....*. But Torsten continued to further gesticulate and encourage, while of course this all goes on in German just to further complicate matters...

SO this is what I ended up with at the very beginning ...(Can you tell I was looking at Picasso's fawn ink drawings earlier in the day??) and I must say that while all of this intimidated the living H*ll out of me it was actually felt quite nice to be working only with paint...though I am finding that one of my biggest handicpas is loosing the "Illustrator" style to get things to be a bit more real... I'm workin' on it...This is the version of anothe rimage free hand again in paint only, and the same image again below, but with a pencil sketch first and then several paint washes over top.

The secret it seems to me is to make all of your main lines very lightly in a wash and then to build the colour up refining the shapes as you go. At the end the guiding lines are virtually invisible, so if they were a bit off it is no problem. The beauty of water color if you are using good paper it is easy to lift ant excess color off after the fact, even if it has already dried, with a little light pressure (cutips or TAMPONS work well go figure) and some water.
The next is a rendition of one of Torsten's pieces.
This next peice is something have been fooling around with for a while, wanting to experiment with my pen and ink a bit more, using the pen to do some really super fine detail, and then water color and some ink washes for shadow and depth...It was fun to fool around with the different things...it is called "Chronic Pain", and relates directly to my Prolotherapy experience, those having had prolo for chronic pain are the ones taking little ballons up up UP from the mountain and those for whatever reason didn't/couldn't/or wouldn't are decending to I know where not...sort of dark I know, but being free of pain is what enables me to do all of this!!! YAhhoooo!!!

Got some more watercolor portraits to show you tomorrow!! Check back in!!

Nikki Saint Phalle in Hanover

2008-02-23T21:28:00.001+01:00

Eric Fischl

2008-02-05T22:46:00.002+01:00

A Later Addition ; in response to a question for Gary over at Withinsight who was wondering about the nature of these sculptures. The sculptures are life sized which adds to the effect and drama of them. Another interesting observation to note, and maybe something that may be more apparent to me as a non-local, the exhibit also included a figure in great physical distress being helped by a Samaritan, indeed the title of the piece called Samaritan, (you can see it at the back of the studio on the left in this photo) a very powerful piece, made me wonder if in fact this is not a nod to German War history, even thought the artist is an American.

The figures themselves appear to be made out of cast iron, and have a very weighty look, but upon reading about them further I discovered that in fact they are cast resin, and then presumably faux finished with various materials to resemble rusted iron, which in fact you can see Fischl doing if you follow the "Samaritan" link. The use of material finish lends them an air of permanence and weightiness physically and figuratively that I do not believe resin would have afforded.

Theses Went to a very cool sculpture exhibition at the suggestion of my art teacher, you can check it to here, famous American sculpture artist Eric Fischl...said with great reverence BTW...

I found the work to be raw and powerful.

It was exhibited at a somewhat obscure (well to me anyway... half tourist and half-walking-newcomer-that-I-usually-am) exhibition hall, but in the end, well turns out that his was my VERY LUCKY DAY.

I am sort of fishing around for some more art contacts, I would love to also do some life drawing, you know naked model who needs money poses for a group of wannabe artists...no but seriously a great way to improve your perception of anatomy, and proportion etc...we did several semesters of it in college (but were all so young and shy we had a hard time not giggling and googling ...goons...)

Any way at the gallery when I inquired about a newsletter in which I might post an ad the receptionist suggested I speak with the curator who might help me. Well if this kind, and of course, utterly elegant woman was not singly one of the sweetest and most helpful souls I have EVER had the good fortune of meeting well just knock me over with a paint canvas...

She not only went through some of the printed material in the reception area with me, but suggested several different avenues I might pursue, and proceeded to take down all my info and insist that yes of course we MUST stay in touch...and then 20 minutes into my visit of the gallery well up on the 2nd floor she huffing and puffingly proceeded to track me down rushing in with even more information that might be of use to me... well just bowl me right over...so very very kind...and at the very end of it all she had found an artist taking students to help them develop their portfolios...

*Gee Toto we don't seem to be in Kansas anymore...*

In any case the exhibit was very cool...what do you think?

Another topic entirely... is anyone else having trouble with spell check?

My "Flexible Friend"...

2008-01-26T14:51:00.001+01:00

With these...a present from TBG for Xmas bless his heart...

And with the help of this, my "Flexible Friend" (thanks to TBG's parents BLESS THEIR HEARTS!!!)

I have been able to work on THIS...

And THIS..

Update on the Villa in Pen and ink

2008-01-09T19:56:00.002+01:00

Here it is...the final version.

It was really fun to experiment with the pen and all the different ways of using it. Rendering buildings, trees, roofing, stone walls, shrubs, and then later to add the 3 color washes, starting with a whisper of ink and then ending with a darker version. It looks a bit rounded and that is due to the camera lens.

I also realize that this would be great technique to use with water color. I think the color would really bring it to life.

The second piece is another freer technique and is a copy of a piece from Torsten's portfolio.
It is interesting how the photograph of the work brings out the faults and now looking at it I
would like to have another go at it. But ...I think I won't. Interesting tho and lots of fun. A real introduction for me as I have never worked with this Media and in this way.

Serious happiness...

2008-01-09T19:38:00.002+01:00

Started my first day of the Wed A.M art classes. all went well , with the possible exception of a case of the inflating course fee, but...humumm... I am so all fired up about this it though a bit more than I had been previously told is still well more than ok.

So this morning when I arrived RIGHT AFTER re-hashing the fee structure again, granted in another language which always makes it a bit dicey, we began ...at the beginning... with EYES.

I say this because in my fashion illustration days I always...no matter what I was illustrating... I ALWAYS began with the eyes. Upper lids first, a set of thick and sultry lashes and then the irises, dark shaded and so smoky the pupils are indistinguishable, followed by a set of finely arched and artfully pencilled brows, an aquiline nose and thick matte red lips a-la-80's. Oooh I loved it...

...and then perhaps a sleek up-do, some dangly earrings, a sexy armpit and then the dress...a slinky curve revealing dress cut out of the finest jersey with a back cut down to there a touch of ruching over a flat belly and a shoulder pad, yes those Dallas shoulder pads, .... or perhaps a floating ball gown with a fur stole, an elegant pant suit with oh-so-strappy heels...Oriental satins, Thai silks, Italian brocades and French tulle, all opulent and gorgeous...ahh yes those were the opulent 80's...'

But wait I digress...

So this is what we began with today and it seems it DOES all begin with the eyes...

The examples...

and mine...

"Poena" and "The Art within me" and why I called it so...

2007-12-14T20:19:00.001+01:00

The seed of an idea began to germinate in my mind in a very small voice about a year ago …
The voice suggested quietly that perhaps my experience as a professional woman, a mother and a female in our culture might help me to identify with the feelings of others also frustrated with the conflict as they juggle nurturing a family and expressing their independent personal identities.

*Multiple personality??*

The voice then asked a little louder if perhaps I might just have something (in)valuable, individual to contribute in a unique way; something interesting to say about this struggle and maybe in a way that I can participate that is different from anything anyone else has done? I wondered myself if, in our booming idea age, it is even possible; sort of like when they closed the patent office in the 20’s as they figured that everything that would be invented had already been invented… Could I possibly do something not only different but that might have a meaningful and lasting effect?

*Mid life crisis??*

Record the ebb and sway of the tide of our modern life and my experience as woman in it? Record a time of very real beginnings felted with the textile and fiber of old onto the tissue of new? Could I paint things that are meaningful to the daughters of our daughters and their daughters friends, to shed some light on the lives of women in our new age? The thought is exhilarating to me … Could I possibly participate and comment on the tide that is the moving of “us” into the “something else” that is new and to be; but through art?? More than just pretty pictures…

*Frustrated house wife??*

And so the germinating seed of an idea that began as a very small voice has swollen, split and sprung into a vigorous green shoot, lifting upwards towards the air and the sun, flowering perhaps or maybe becoming a tree but certainly becoming something tall and robust, with much depth and many secrets that will take their time to be revealed, like a magical nut tree bearing multiples of varied fruit depending on the season. Though I am not yet certain which type of plant I harbor and with which leaves, or which fruit or coverings will spring forth, I am certain that I am delighted to be near to harvest and savor the ripe fruit. I am also certain there are many secrets to be glimpsed beneath the leafy green foliage, and then finally to be laid bare when the winter wind finally strips her at the end of it all. Of all of this I am delighted.

*Bad poetical wannabe??*

Could I record and express all of this growth, exploration and angst visually…for others to share?? Could I possibly paint??

*Dreamer??*

So the idea to paint has become larger and larger, my creative ideas evolving from the practical to the more esoteric. As the blogging community is such a wonderful way to share ideas it seemed only natural to keep record of what I have done and to see how my ideas evolve, connect with others and more importantly state my intentions. Since I have been so smitten with classical works and have been so fortunate to see so may of them here in Europe and since I have such a desire to emulate the skill and technique of the masters it seemed only fitting to find Blog title emulating that a name in a classical language.

*Pathological blogger??*

Poena translates to “Paint” in Latin, when I checked back though I also discovered that it translates to the word “Pain“. I found that interesting. Since art is often an expression of angst, growth or just plain old lots of work it seemed to fit. I also, being the obscenely visual person I am, liked the look of the word, and the fact that it sounds a bit like “Peony” and I also just liked the lyrical nature of the word, the roll of it of the tip of the tongue.

*Freak??*

NO….

*Optimist, never quits; go hard go home girl!*

YES!!

So there you go…Poena!!

Oooh ya, I made it!!

2007-11-22T23:32:00.001+01:00

Against all the odds, babysitter conflicts, sick children and a very-busy-at-work husband I actually made it to the painting class. I screeched in 5 minutes late...but...

...So happy to be there.

Here are the pics.

Paul Torsten, Italian sculptor and apparently master of many media, taking students and happily has room for one more.

I just happened to eject myself into a segment of paper and ink, not something I have tired, but interesting none the less...so bear with me

The Atelier....

The work to be rendered

and my stab at it...

I will attend 2 days a week, (vibrate...vibrate) and to top it off it is in a super cool neighbourhood much like a gentrified Queen west (for the benefit of any Torontonians...

Stay tuned...

Monkey see... Monkey do!!!

2007-11-14T21:15:00.002+01:00

I am VIBRATING with excitement!!

I am starting a painting class tomorrow night!!!

Serendipity and lady luck are on my side and with a little help from a friend I am able to join a local painting group that meets once a week...all in German...

Being the absurdly visual person that I am...Monkey see ...Monkey do... I should be fine!!!

I am SO happy....!!!

*vibrate* *vibrate*!!!

Update...Working Woman's Dreams

2007-11-11T22:49:00.001+01:00

The Dove
The Butterfly
The Parrot
So far, I am still working on getting the face to look right, and am really learning about rendering her face in watercolor...not easy....but fun and interesting, I want her to look real but surreal at the same moment...peaceful in a the waters run deep sort of way...stay tuned.

Hamburg and the Kunsthalle Museum

2007-11-11T22:27:00.001+01:00

Our visit to the Hamburg Kunsthalle Museum, check it out here.

There was a very good classical gallery, which we enjoyed immensley, and I discovered a new Favourite artist, Otto Runge. One of his works that I loved below, You can check him out here.

This is one of his works called Small Morning", fabulous dreamlike quality.

I took some pics of some other things that struck my fancy, As you can see especially the more dreamlike abstracts...

These were really cool smal sculptures made out of paper pulp , painted and suspended, very cool.

We saw some very interesting groupings made with photographs painted over with a thick paint like Jesso and then and scraped clean with a blade leaving a portion of the painting exposed...very cool idea for my photos or for a photo collage.

Working Woman's Dreams

2007-10-21T23:59:00.001+02:00

I am fascinated by collage and with my background in design love fashion images. I have also been feeling so pulled between the aspect of mothering my children and the desire to paint ad return to school, I wanted to try to represent this with a crazy kind surreal dream scape using a collage image.

The composition looks something like this... With a dove representing peacefulness and a parrot representing the carefree lifestyle of youth both flying out of the picture with a dog and a baby and some butterflies, adding to the surreal aspect of the picture, also the woman's features are displaced....so far looks something like this... in water colour...

I have used a resist to block out the more detailed forms so I could really develop the background. I am pleased with it so far...

Organic abundance

2007-10-21T23:51:00.001+02:00

This is a piece I did over the summer, kind of like a sampler, I was really trying out my brushes and the paint to see what they (and I could do). A little bit of pressure after all the mouthing off about how much I really wanted to paint...

I tried to feel the flow of the paint and to do different things with the brush, to create different effects. In the end it was more like an acrylic piece than a water colour as the colours do not blend so very much, but i was fun, full of organic forms and sexual imagery. (Georgia O'Keeffe, here I come!!!)

Humble beginnings...

2007-10-21T23:45:00.000+02:00

The nifty watercolours I began with, purchased in Dijon.

I Love them...
My first attempt at a portrait of Lily,

and of Riel. Not bad?