My Goals

Get a degree in fine art, maybe even a masters... Study with a Master. Study Realism and abstract art. Paint in classical style in water color, oil and acrylic. Mae my own paint. Paint modern, abstract and surreal subjects in a classical way. Make social comment through art. Start an international woman's artists collective. Build a web site full of art resources. Do Collaborative art with women around the world. Show.

Friday, December 14, 2007

"Poena" and "The Art within me" and why I called it so...

The seed of an idea began to germinate in my mind in a very small voice about a year ago …
The voice suggested quietly that perhaps my experience as a professional woman, a mother and a female in our culture might help me to identify with the feelings of others also frustrated with the conflict as they juggle nurturing a family and expressing their independent personal identities.

*Multiple personality??*

The voice then asked a little louder if perhaps I might just have something (in)valuable, individual to contribute in a unique way; something interesting to say about this struggle and maybe in a way that I can participate that is different from anything anyone else has done? I wondered myself if, in our booming idea age, it is even possible; sort of like when they closed the patent office in the 20’s as they figured that everything that would be invented had already been invented… Could I possibly do something not only different but that might have a meaningful and lasting effect?

*Mid life crisis??*

Record the ebb and sway of the tide of our modern life and my experience as woman in it? Record a time of very real beginnings felted with the textile and fiber of old onto the tissue of new? Could I paint things that are meaningful to the daughters of our daughters and their daughters friends, to shed some light on the lives of women in our new age? The thought is exhilarating to me … Could I possibly participate and comment on the tide that is the moving of “us” into the “something else” that is new and to be; but through art?? More than just pretty pictures…

*Frustrated house wife??*

And so the germinating seed of an idea that began as a very small voice has swollen, split and sprung into a vigorous green shoot, lifting upwards towards the air and the sun, flowering perhaps or maybe becoming a tree but certainly becoming something tall and robust, with much depth and many secrets that will take their time to be revealed, like a magical nut tree bearing multiples of varied fruit depending on the season. Though I am not yet certain which type of plant I harbor and with which leaves, or which fruit or coverings will spring forth, I am certain that I am delighted to be near to harvest and savor the ripe fruit. I am also certain there are many secrets to be glimpsed beneath the leafy green foliage, and then finally to be laid bare when the winter wind finally strips her at the end of it all. Of all of this I am delighted.

*Bad poetical wannabe??*

Could I record and express all of this growth, exploration and angst visually…for others to share?? Could I possibly paint??


So the idea to paint has become larger and larger, my creative ideas evolving from the practical to the more esoteric. As the blogging community is such a wonderful way to share ideas it seemed only natural to keep record of what I have done and to see how my ideas evolve, connect with others and more importantly state my intentions. Since I have been so smitten with classical works and have been so fortunate to see so may of them here in Europe and since I have such a desire to emulate the skill and technique of the masters it seemed only fitting to find Blog title emulating that a name in a classical language.

*Pathological blogger??*

Poena translates to “Paint” in Latin, when I checked back though I also discovered that it translates to the word “Pain“. I found that interesting. Since art is often an expression of angst, growth or just plain old lots of work it seemed to fit. I also, being the obscenely visual person I am, liked the look of the word, and the fact that it sounds a bit like “Peony” and I also just liked the lyrical nature of the word, the roll of it of the tip of the tongue.



*Optimist, never quits; go hard go home girl!*


So there you go…Poena!!

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Oooh ya, I made it!!

Against all the odds, babysitter conflicts, sick children and a very-busy-at-work husband I actually made it to the painting class. I screeched in 5 minutes late...but...

...So happy to be there.
Here are the pics.

Paul Torsten, Italian sculptor and apparently master of many media, taking students and happily has room for one more.

I just happened to eject myself into a segment of paper and ink, not something I have tired, but interesting none the bear with me

The Atelier....

The work to be rendered
and my stab at it...
I will attend 2 days a week, (vibrate...vibrate) and to top it off it is in a super cool neighbourhood much like a gentrified Queen west (for the benefit of any Torontonians...
Stay tuned...

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Monkey see... Monkey do!!!

I am VIBRATING with excitement!!

I am starting a painting class tomorrow night!!!

Serendipity and lady luck are on my side and with a little help from a friend I am able to join a local painting group that meets once a week...all in German...

Being the absurdly visual person that I am...Monkey see ...Monkey do... I should be fine!!!

I am SO happy....!!!

*vibrate* *vibrate*!!!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Update...Working Woman's Dreams

The Dove
The Butterfly
The Parrot
So far, I am still working on getting the face to look right, and am really learning about rendering her face in watercolor...not easy....but fun and interesting, I want her to look real but surreal at the same moment...peaceful in a the waters run deep sort of way...stay tuned.

Hamburg and the Kunsthalle Museum

Our visit to the Hamburg Kunsthalle Museum, check it out here.
There was a very good classical gallery, which we enjoyed immensley, and I discovered a new Favourite artist, Otto Runge. One of his works that I loved below, You can check him out here.
This is one of his works called Small Morning", fabulous dreamlike quality.

I took some pics of some other things that struck my fancy, As you can see especially the more dreamlike abstracts...

These were really cool smal sculptures made out of paper pulp , painted and suspended, very cool.

We saw some very interesting groupings made with photographs painted over with a thick paint like Jesso and then and scraped clean with a blade leaving a portion of the painting exposed...very cool idea for my photos or for a photo collage.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Working Woman's Dreams

I am fascinated by collage and with my background in design love fashion images. I have also been feeling so pulled between the aspect of mothering my children and the desire to paint ad return to school, I wanted to try to represent this with a crazy kind surreal dream scape using a collage image.

The composition looks something like this... With a dove representing peacefulness and a parrot representing the carefree lifestyle of youth both flying out of the picture with a dog and a baby and some butterflies, adding to the surreal aspect of the picture, also the woman's features are far looks something like this... in water colour...

I have used a resist to block out the more detailed forms so I could really develop the background. I am pleased with it so far...

Organic abundance

This is a piece I did over the summer, kind of like a sampler, I was really trying out my brushes and the paint to see what they (and I could do). A little bit of pressure after all the mouthing off about how much I really wanted to paint...

I tried to feel the flow of the paint and to do different things with the brush, to create different effects. In the end it was more like an acrylic piece than a water colour as the colours do not blend so very much, but i was fun, full of organic forms and sexual imagery. (Georgia O'Keeffe, here I come!!!)

Humble beginnings...

The nifty watercolours I began with, purchased in Dijon.
I Love them...
My first attempt at a portrait of Lily,

and of Riel. Not bad?